It’s funny how ONE GODDAMN TUMOR CAN HURT SO MOTHER FUCKING BAD

I guess im starting to feel normal again because I’m worrying about wasting my parents money

Remember when u used to yell at me all the time and tell me I would grow up to be an alcoholic hahahaha

GOD I LUV X FILES

I’m a lot like you
I hate it
I’m rude like you sometimes
I talk like you
I fucking smoke newports
I’m sad like you
you changed me a lot
n then you left
that’s not fair

I miss intelligent conversations
being sad made me lose all my personality
n I don’t feel like anybody wants me around
I don’t feel like the person I did before
but I’ll only bitch about it on here
because wanting to be reminded u don’t fucking suck is attention-seeking
I lost my humor my value my depth and my tolerance
I miss feeling valuable

life is tumblr lol at fort armistead

i

wo

nder if you even read it

i have faith that i will be able to love someone else like i loved you again but holy shit am i scared that that won’t actually happen

i really hate being alone

i miss being held

i miss being kissed

i miss feeling like i didnt suck

idk

nothing could ever be the same anyway

i feel like ive lost all the things that made people like me

and i feel like im just too weird now

and a lot less pretty

meh

i want this process to speed up